Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Eye on the Prize

I never did well in Physical Education. The best I ever did in my younger years was an 'S' for satisfactory effort, and in later years, a C+, which was more for attendance than anything. I opted out of P.E. in grades 11 & 12 because the last thing I wanted to happen was to be tested with a 'fat' gauge to measure change in physical inches between Day 1 and the end of the year. Couldn't they guess what that would do to a teenage girl's self-esteem? Anyways, the goal for me all those years was June- and the end of PE for another two months.

During this pregnancy, I've kept my eyes on intermediate goals such as 1) strong beta hcg numbers, 2) 6 weeks, when the heartbeat is seen, 3) 9 weeks, the latest gestation date of our miscarriages, 4) 10 weeks, the promotion from RE's office to regular OB, 5) 13 weeks, the beginning of trimester #2. Last week, it was our 20wk milestone of half-way, and the anatomy ultrasound.

It continues to be surreal to be pregnant again and to feel Baby Girl's kicks and tumbling. It is difficult to wait four weeks in between appointments because I'd like someone 'official' reassure me everything is okay but in the meantime, my prayer life and dependency on God's provision carries me day-to-day.

In the past years since having Russell, I've sometimes wandered over to the girls' side of clothing stores but haven't lingered too long unless I'm buying for a friend's daughter. The girls' clothing was just so super-cute, it was hard not to at least look. Last weekend, I needed to drop a few items off at our Thrift Store and so I took the liberty of going inside and checking out the girls' isles. I don't plan on buying too much 0-12 month clothing because Dan's cousin's wife is setting a few bags aside since they have three daughters, but I still just wanted to look for random items that usually aren't given as gifts (coats, shoes, hats).

I was so pleased to find the following winter coat:


The picture doesn't do it justice, but for now, this coat symbolizes my 'eye on the prize' and hope. It will do Baby Girl for next winter (12-18 months) if we spend Christmas up in B.C. And for $1.99, who could pass it up?

10 comments:

Erin said...

Aww, I'm so happy for you! I really want a daughter too! Of course any healthy baby will do just fine.

Photogrl said...

How cute is that coat!?!

I'm SO happy for you Hillary.

Aly sun said...

Great cute prize coat. The time can pass so slowly! I hear ya.

Kathy said...

Yay! The coat is adorable and a great symbol of keeping your eyes on the prize! So happy for you! You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Tracy said...

very cute coat!

Joy said...

CUTE!!!

C. Beth said...

ADORABLE. Perfect. So fun. :)

C. Beth said...

And--I love your attitude of trust in God. It's encouraging.

UnicornMommy said...

nice find. It's adorable.

Bug informed me this morning that he wanted a girl baby. Saying he was a boy and he thinks this baby should be a girl. (I secretly 100% agreed with him.)

But told him God would pick if the baby was a boy or girl. He said. Yup that is right...

Looking at that coat...oh man I want a girl. I havent dared buy anything yet.

I have the same milestones as you and this new four week window without a weekly u/s is killing me.

We are going thrift store hoping tomorrow for maternity clothes...wish us luck.

alr said...

So sweet! I hope we can get together soon. If you're in a place of talking more about the pregnancy and the fun dreaming part, I'd love to hear.